Update On Motivation

I have been meaning to write this since I started on this path. It is a ridiculous notion that in 11 months a person can turn themselves from a 150 pounds overweight, no physical activity doing, couch potato into a half-marathon runner. Logic would state that this is an illogical path to take.

However, when I first heard about this half-marathon, and that friends from back in the day were doing it, I knew that I had to. It wasn't that I really wanted to, but that I was compelled to. Don't get me wrong, I was not compelled by their doing it. I just knew it was the right thing to do.

Those that know me and have known me through the years know that I have been an abject failure in maintaining fitness and keeping my weight down. This is why I am no longer a member of the U.S. Navy. With that information, it would seem preposterous to think that I can do this.

However, I knew, that this was something I needed to do. That does bring me to this point. I have a tendency to take pride in what I have accomplished when attempting this kind of thing. Invariably, when I start getting eaten up with that pride, I fail. This is a manifestation of my depraved, fallen, humanness. The difference this time is that I am totally dependent on God to get me through this.

As I stated before, it is ridiculous to think that I, being the fallen, sinful, prideful, selfish man that I am can accomplish this on my own. However, with total dependence on God to pull me through this, I have no doubt that this will happen.

So, to be blunt, any successes I have with this are all God's, and they bring only him honor. Any failures I suffer are totally on my shoulders. All I wish to do, is to follow His will for me.